The Dress

    There is something about knowing that I get to try on my wedding dress today that is suspenseful. I am so excited, but at the same time worry if Lucas will love it as much as I do. This has kind of the same relation to my anticipation for him to start Med School, I am so stinking excited, but will we really end up loving it as much as we hope. My dress is being kept as secret to him as most wedding traditionalist participate in but there is a part of me that can't help but want to share something so special with him. It won't happen till the day of our wedding, but it is kind of funny that this is the ultimate secret I keep. We do share everything and make sure one another always knows our feelings wether scared or extremely happy and I think that is such a huge and wonderful part of having a great relationship as we do.

   It is funny the things we have been going through to get to where we are, including our wedding plans. Lucas reminds me all the time lets soak everything up while we are in the process of planning, but sometimes stress can take over. Then sometime fear knowing that once we are married for the first four years it's all on my shoulders, but like the details of my dress I try to keep the details of my fear to myself and know he will love me no matter what. We have done most of our planning already and it is a giant weight that has lifted from the whole process, since we are having a destination wedding though it's been easy to plan for out there because they do everything for you. But it's our reception here that has been harder, the appointments and decisions are just nuts but it sure is fun. It's great because the feeling I had when I had tried on my dress was instant love, instant relief and happiness. I smile inside every time I dream about it and that's exactly kind if how I felt when we made all of our other decisions together for all of our other wedding details.

    It's been tough, but SO fun! I love making decisions with Lucas, it's like he calms me down and that's one thing that makes me head over heels for him. I'm the luckiest girl in the world to be marrying him and I know he will love my dress just as much as I do, just like I will love Med School just as much as he will because that's what makes him happy and excited... It's about my love for him.